Sigh

My apartment is kind of hectic right now with stuff everywhere. I think it'll be like that for a while. Last week was so bad. I'd been sleep deprived (which I'm still not caught up with). I woke up late 3 days in a row! Honestly who does that! I missed my physics quiz but thankfully lowest score is dropped. This has happened every single quarter with Physics. I'm so dumb. Even though I keep telling myself it'll be okay and I'll try really hard on the final, I still can't get over it.

I did better on my abnormal psych midterm though so that was good. Michelle and Dorothy moved in. It was so much fun...living! with Michelle. It feels weird saying that lol. Dinner Friday night was nice. Yay for surprises. Went to downtown mall with Michelle on sat cuz needed to return some stuff and then she went home. I got on the bus to come back to Davis. After about a minute of me sitting down on the bus, an older guy came and sat next to me..like really close. I found it really weird since there were other seats empty and he was sitting with his friends in the back of the bus. I got really scared because he kept looking at me and was close to me. I had my ipod on so I acted like I couldn't hear him. I'm pretty sure he didn't say anything to me. I just felt really uncomfortable the entire time. I kept hoping he would get off of the bus soon but he didn't. I starting thinking of all these what ifs in my head. Like what if he gets off at the same stop as I do and follows me to my apartment? I wasn't brave enough to tell him to move or move myself. I kept looking at other people and thinking how they have no idea how uncomfortable I felt.

Fortunately nothing happened and he got off at the MU stop. I felt so relieved but still felt scared until I got home. I was so scared that I wasn't ready to get on a yolobus again to go to the orientation for the medical outreach even I'm going to volunteer for..

I always thought I was brave enough for something like this. I felt so weak when I was sitting in the bus. I feel like it's not a big deal but I just felt so scared. I think I felt helpless since I didn't have my phone with me. I felt like if anything happened, no one would hear me or help me..I just kept getting negative thoughts in my head. Yea not going on a yolobus by myself again for a long time. :[