Back in Davis

I'm back in Davis now but feel very unsocial. All I want to do is sit in my bed and watch drama all day haha. Met up with Ben for dinner cuz he wanted to talk. Hmm I don't know how I feel about our friendship.

Feels so weird to be back already. Don't want to start classes!

Favorite song right now: "She is" from My Lovely Sam-Soon

Going back to Davis tomorrow. I'm excited about the trip with Grace again :] Service on Sunday!

Sigh

I don't know how to deal with my family right now, especially my dad. He's not being very nice to anyone in the family. It hurts me to see my mom coming home crying. Well I didn't see her crying but I could definitely tell she was. I just want things to get better. This is going to be a long week. I can't wait to go back to Davis, but at the same time I don't want to start school :[

yay

Just like the title says...Yay! Finals are over (finally)! Saturday after my finals I slept for like 2 hours and it felt so nice to be able to do that. I got ready and went over to Jennifer's place and Chris picked us up for the party. Jennifer and I just hung out at his apartment with his housemates, which was fun. Man those guys are so funny. Omg the party was so much fun. Yea that's it haha.

I didn't get much sleep that night but oh well, it was worth it. The next morning Grace picked me up along with Fei and we went to her church in Sac. The service was a little different from what I had seen before but I liked it. The Pastor was really passionate (like expected) about everything. You could say he was a little aggressive but I liked it because it really showed this means a lot to him. Grace really appreciated that I read everything with her. I heart that girl! We got coffee and lunch after church and were on our way to Fresno.

We kind of got lost on our way to Fresno though -__- yes I know how could that have happened. Well we took the I-5, which I never take and I don't know. Grace thought we'd get on 99 really quickly but we didn't. We went back and then we were on the 680. Yea so confusing and btw we also had a gps! hahah

Finally we decided to just continue on the I-5 and we found 152 and from there got on the 99...finally!! We dropped off Fei and then Grace dropped me off. Fei lives hecka far away from us but Grace and I basically live half a mile away. Also now that I think about it, Grace is the only college friend who actually saw my house and met my mom. I'm so excited about my friendship with Grace because she is just so nice and sweet. I'm excited to hang out with her more! :]

Finals

I'm so sad. People are like finishing up finals and I haven't even started. I haven't crossed out a single final off my list yet. When they do start, I won't get any time to rest whatsoever.

Physics on Friday, Ochem and Bio back to back on Saturday.

Hopefully I can pull this off. I really didn't like this quarter. Nothing was wrong with me but just not a very peaceful or happy quarter sadly. I can't wait for Spring quarter to start. Mom is sick, like really sick. I haven't been able to talk to her for a couple days now. We just say hi and that's all. I guess I'll have to make sure to spend a lot of time with her when I'm home.

All I want right now is to pass my finals and pass all my classes. I want my friends to stay with me forever. I'm so scared that I'll be left alone one day.. :[

wtf!

If this ever happens again I'm seriously going to stop trusting the male population. I feel used. Why is he able to just push me out of his life and then expect me to be back again?! I forgive him but I'm going to hold this against him for a very long time...it's just not fair.

APhiO

The Babies and Bumps service was so much fun. I'm so excited about next quarter and doing more service! :]

Friends

I really want everything to be okay. It hurts to see when friends are not doing well. I love them all and all I want right now is for them to feel better. We've all grown so much in our friendships and it's very easy to be vulnerable since we're so close to each other. It hurts even more when you love someone so much. I'm so thankful and happy to have close friends.

College has taught me you can't trust everyone you meet. I trust people very easily but I am learning from my experiences. If people care about you, they stick around and support you, otherwise they can leave you just like that. I don't want to be used ever again.

I want to keep my friends forever!

Slumdog Millionaire

I watched slumdog millionaire online a few weeks ago. It made me sad especially since I come from the same country. All I could think about was how can I help the people who live in the slums but I had nothing. Sad. I want to make a change! but it's so hard right now because I don't think my parents are going to allow me to just travel to a different country and help the ones in need. Hopefully I can when I'm older and my parents have let me go a little more.

btw if you haven't seen the movie, I recommend it. It is a sad movie but it shows that there's hope in this world. :]