I hate people who hurt my friends. This whole apo thing is getting lame. You can't trust anyone. I don't like you so don't even try to be nice to me now. I almost don't even want to pick up now cuz of this.

Tonight is one of those nights when I HATE APO! Honestly everyone is annoying me except group 4 of course. I heart those kids! I wouldn't be in APO if it wasn't for them.

Hmm

Let me hear your voice.



I talked to Harman on the phone yesterday for a really long time. She's having problems with her boyfriend. Honestly I sometimes don't like him. He's so mean to her and I told her today that she needs to get away from him for a while. She said okay and that she really wants to visit me. She might come next week! yay =] She also got me excited for Sunday. She said it'll be a lot of fun! <3

I feel bad for him. I'm proud of him for doing what he wants to and not listening to her. She's hella selfish for wanting him to not share. Freakin so possessive.

I was really happy last night. I'm kind of energy-less now -__-

I don't know how I feel about things anymore. Not much has happened. I hope I'm not sitting by myself at my apartment on Halloween..I guess I really shouldn't be excited.

New week!

Today was relaxing. Finally done with the first round of midterms. Only sleeping for a couple hours sunday night..well more like Monday morning, got to me! I got enough sleep last night too but I was way too tired to function today. Skipped work once again =[ and slept for 4 hours! Studied for bio with Hugo. We're trying to keep up with the material to do better on the next midterm <3

Started watching Iris! It's different from all the other dramas I watch. I'm only watching cuz TOP is in it =D I'm still on ep 1 and he still hasn't showed up ugh -__- Lee Byung Hun is pretty hot too haha =]

I think I might wear a toga for halloween! Annie's gonna learn from her friend how to tie one and then teach me. yay!

Going to Yuba City with family on Sunday. There's a huge celebration of Guru Nanak Dev Ji's birthday there (it happens every year but we've just never gone) and it's called Guru Nanak Jayanti. Harman's family is going too. They're going to pick me up on the way =]


"Sometimes you gotta act like you don't care. That's the only way you boys learn."
soo true -__-

I wanna try tteokbokki!

This weekend was fun but also relaxing. Friday night was Dana and Allison's birthday celebration. Dinner at Elephant Bar, which was expensive and not that great -__- Also I wasn't that hungry for some reason. I got a top shelf margarita, which was really good =] After dinner, came back to Davis and stopped by our apts to drop off leftovers. I ended up changing cuz I felt too warm wearing 2 layers. We first went to Bernardo's to get drinks. I bought Dana and Allison a wiki and bought myself one too. They both shared it and I shared mine with them and other girls too. Few of the other girls got other drinks and omg they were so sweet -__- I've tried the Midori Sour at G st pub and Sophia's and it wasn't that sweet there, but Bernardo's makes it super sweet. Even the margarita that couple of girls got were REALLY sweet. I like sweet drinks cuz I don't like the taste of alcohol that much but honestly the margaritas were way too sweet for me. I had to drink my wiki to get rid of the sweet taste haha.

Kevin, Alex, Tyler, Jon and his gf came to Bernardo's too. I'm not sure if they stopped by just cuz they were bar hopping or to celebrate with the birthday girls. We went to Ketmoree after, which was pretty packed. I guess a guy was super drunk and I'm not sure what he did but I'm guessing he passed out cuz the bouncers ran inside and brought him outside. There were like 5 bouncers on top of him trying to keep him down because he was trying to leave. I have no idea exactly what was going on. But because of that we didn't have to pay cover lol. Yay! haha The music was pretty good. There were random songs that I was like wth but overall good experience again. I got a blue hawaiian with Kate, which was good. I think Kevin thought I got AMF lol so he freaked out but I told him I got blue hawaiian. I was definitely drunk after that one. It's a good feeling though. I knew what I was doing and I felt loosened up. I wanna say Dana didn't have a lot of fun. Or like she did but she doesn't like dancing that much, so she probably didn't have as much fun as me and other girls. There were more creepy guys there so I had to save some girls. One guy totally just grabbed Lindsay's arm! He was so aggressive so she pushed him away and started walking away but then I grabbed her arm because I didn't want her to be by herself. She freaked out again when I grabbed her arm but then she saw that it was me and she felt better. Hmm interesting night -__-

Allison and I were the most drunk that night. I realized how self-conscious she is about herself. She said she didn't wanna look like she was having too much fun because she knew Dana wasn't. She also said that she's the bad girl because she likes to drink and dance but Dana doesn't. I told her she needs to stop thinking that because I'm sure Dana does not think less of her just because she likes to have fun. We chilled at Dana's apt and sobered up a little and then I went back to my apt. I ate and sobered up more. Finally went to sleep and woke up at like 10:30. Got ready and Jon picked me up. We picked up Aurina. I really like her apt! Then went to safeway and I got snacks for my sponsoree and Jon got snacks for his trainees and sponsoree. Stopped by wendi's to get some food cuz we didn't think we'd make it to lunch at retreat. They were still serving lunch at retreat though -__- Hung out with pbros and pdad at retreat, which was a lot of fun. Jessica came up to me and told me that she found me a really good little because she knows that I don't have a good big but that it's not final. I was kind of annoyed because I didn't want to know that. Now I'm going to have high expectations..better get a good lil now!

Jon texted me and said that he might be taking Aurina back to Davis cuz her bunny got really sick. (We'd only been at retreat for couple hours.) I freaked out and wanted to see Aurina. Jon told me she was with Jon Kong. We went and tried to comfort her and I told her that we should go back so she could be with her bunny. Cindy kept her updated though and she said that she and the housemates took the bunny to the vet but it was closed. Apparently the bunny had been sick for a few days and he hadn't been eating. Aurina didn't take him to the vet because she knew it would be expensive but I really wish she had. We just chilled some more and started walking with the pledges to the lake. But I kept telling Jon that we need to get Aurina back. So we found her with Alex and asked her if we could leave. That was when she told us that her bunny died..=[ I felt so bad for her! She loved that bunny sooo much. We decided that we would watch the pledges at the lake play games for a little bit and then leave for Davis. The ride back to Davis was really quiet. Aurina was sad, I was sad for her and was super tired (and hungover), and Jon was sad for her and was driving.

We got to her apt and the moment we walked in, she started looking for her bunny. He wasn't in her room so she freaked out. He was downstairs by Haley's room. Aurina couldn't stop crying =[ and we all cried with her. I knew we couldn't do anything other than just be with her. The bunny's eyes wouldn't close and he was really stiff. She wanted to cremate him but her mom said that's illegal and that her dad will pick up the bunny in the morning and they'll bury it in her brother's backyard in sac. I think she felt a little better because she had people with her. Jon and I decided to pick up pizza for everyone for dinner, which was really good. We sat around the table, ate, and just talked about random stuff and tried not to bring up any topics about the bunny. Jon was worried cuz he used to call Aurina bunny but now he can't so he was scared what if it slipped.

Aurina and Mandy wrapped the bunny in a lot of bags so he wouldn't stink. Trainer put him in the storage and then cleaned his cage. We blasted Big Bang music lol. I think she seemed better by then and she wanted to drink -__- So we went to safeway and got a bottle of Malibu, because it's not that strong. Sharon met us at safeway because she wanted to be there for trainer too. After couple of rounds, Mika finally came! Did round 3 with her. Jon is obsessed with his letters -__- He kept asking if he could put them on now and I was like nooo, alcohol on the table therefore no APO stuff. He's so cute haha. Then just chilled with pbros while trainers went outside to talk. Aurina was really red (she only had like 2 shots though). I guess she really does have low tolerance. She felt kind of sick so she went to her room and laid down. We went upstairs with her too. Ran into Cindy and Mandy who were trying on their Halloween costumes. Cindy was trying to be a creepy doll. It wasn't working cuz she's just adorable lol. Chilled in Aurina's room and decided that we needed to go home cuz she was falling asleep. Jon dropped me off and I changed and got ready for bed. I realized I was super tired but I stayed up a little longer and talked to trainer and Jon online.

Went to bed at 1:30, which was early for me -__- Woke up at 10:30 this morning and cleaned the kitchen. I can't decide if I want to stay for the entire meeting tonight. I mostly just wanna go and drop off food for my sponsoree. I need to study.

FEEL BETTER TRAINER! Your trainees <3 you so much!!

Meh

Not entirely happy with my bis 101 midterm grade, but I did better than the first time. Hugo didn't do that well either so we're going to meet up every Sunday and study so that we keep up with the material. ESP midterm today but I'm not ready. It was so hard to motivate myself to study. I'm super tired.

Went to lunch with Hugo and Elio. They are so cute <3

Excited for this weekend...except when I have to study -__-

Berkeley!

Yesterday was kind of long but fun day. Well more like fun night. Right after work I came home and left for Berkeley. I drove with Mika, Cindy, Rachel and Jon Kong. That was fun =] It was my first time going to Berk except in my dream that one time haha. There were sooo many Indian restaurants. Crazy! There was a Priya's beauty parlor too! hahaha

Gamma Gamma has meetings Tuesday nights whereas we have them Sunday nights. We went there to publicize Regionals and to meet the IC brothers. Their meetings are sooo short! They are so efficient with their meetings. I think it was only 1.5 hours long. GG's chapter is way different from ours. It felt really weird at the meeting cuz I didn't know about some of their stuff. I think you really get to know people at a personal level there since there aren't as many people in the chapter. We kept emphasizing come eat with us after the meeting. We were starving cuz we didn't eat dinner before the meeting! I don't think they took us seriously until we said it like 5 times throughout the meeting haha.

We went to the asian ghetto after the meeting with GG's. That place is pretty awesome. KOREAN FOOD! I finally had some <3 I was sooo hungry! Thank you Rachel for hiding me from people so I could enjoy eating and not have to socialize haha. I was really satisfied after that meal =] Then had to socialize and meet IC bros. I met 3 GG's. Tim, John and Jimmy. Tim and John are 3rd years and pledged Krenek term. They were really boys. Jimmy is pledging right now and his gf is pledging in Davis. soo cute =] He's a really nice guy. He's a grad student for Electrical Engineering. Apparently he's getting his master's in only a year cuz of all the credits he's already gotten from undergrad. He's coming to our meeting on Sunday =]

I found out last night I'm in Minh's line, which is not surprising cuz I think almost everyone in close family is in his line hahah. He calls it his dirty line -__- totally makes sense. Come on it's Minh lol.

After hanging out, we left Berkeley but went to Jon Kong's house cuz he wanted to pick up some stuff from his house. He lives in Milbrae, which is right by sf. Omg can I please just move to sf?! That city is beautiful at night! Saw his house..very Asian haha. I liked it though and Cindy and I stole candy haha. So many family pictures all around the house. We saw different versions of Jon lol. He was cuter when he was younger =P I kid haha. He wanted to take his ps3 to Davis. Omg he treats that thing like his baby. He told Cindy to hold it tightly and didn't let her carry anything else. He put the ps3 in the middle seat and even put the seat belt on LOL. He took a pic of it haha. I wish I'd taken one. He's a funny guy.

Drive back to Davis was nice. I really like the bay area at night. Soo many lights =] Cindy blasted Big Bang. Omg Jon Kong kept making me laugh. I told him I like t.o.p. and he kept making fun of me! I couldn't stop laughing! so he kept turning on the light to check up on me cuz I was dying from laughing hahah.

"Interesting fact about Priya: She likes guys with deep voices."

And that just cracked me up so much. I think that's why I kept laughing so much and blasting fast music is just awesome =D especially big bang!

Came home kind of late but it was worth it. I can't wait for Friday! and I might sneak into retreat on Saturday =]



B. I. G. to the BANG

The Hanyong Pose

LOL SO FUNNY =D

Gara Gara Go!

love Big Bang! <3

What did I expect..of course it wasn't going to last.

Meeting was fun. President makes me mad. He's kind of rude. lap dances lol. Jon Kong is mean. Gave me a dirty look for not signing up for the regionals thing. He didn't even write what the sign up sheet was for! It just said "Gamma Gamma Invasion". How the hell am I supposed to know what that is. Apparently we're going there to publicize Regionals. I'm gonna go cuz I'm so nice. -__- hate you j kong! jk jk

Stupid song makes me sad but it's so good.

Whenever I listen to the paparazzi song, it reminds me of Hugo cuz he always blasts that song in his car whenever I'm with him. =]



NO NO NO

Diwali

Diwali was yesterday. I wish I was in India because it is celebrated so well there. It's a national holiday in India. Diwali has different meanings in different religions. I'm surprised President Obama wished everyone Happy Diwali. You're awesome Obama! haha

Mom called me to wish me Happy Diwali. They were going to the Gurudwara to celebrate it. I missed out! I'm dumb and ate chicken yesterday -__-


It's an Owl City, Lady Gaga and Epik High phase. I love it! Just be glad you don't live with me because you'd probably get tired of me blasting their music except Hannah of course. I got her addicted to Fireflies song. =D

"if we could sit together a moment and talk forever just to pass the time"



JUST DANCE!


=D

I'm ridiculous -__- I did a really dumb thing yesterday that I only realized today that I did it. So yesterday I was cleaning up my room and I was being a good girl and throwing away boxes and stuff. I decided to throw away the small box that was in my room that had all my new contacts cuz I ordered them online. I totally thought I already took out the contacts because all I could see was the paper (receipt thing) that came with it. BUT I THREW THEM AWAY WITH THE BOX! =[ I guess the paper was covering all my contacts. When I was looking for the contacts earlier, I couldn't find them and then I thought OMG DID I THROW THEM AWAY WITH THE BOX?! I ran to the garbage area and there was the box! There was a little bit of trash over it but I found it! The contacts were in it! I was soooo happy that I found them cuz otherwise I would've cried! I basically threw away $300!! Sigh..so glad I have them now. Epic fail!

2 nights in a row

What is wrong with me? I just don't seem to be sleeping at night anymore. Second night in a row I stayed up super late. It was nice talking to Hanyong about random things though. I realized most times I don't even remember what I talk to him about. But it's nice =] His pictures were so funny -__- NO MORE STAYING UP LATE though.

I love Owl City. I have 2 of the albums now and I can't stop listening to them haha. Today is nice. I haven't done much except eat, mail back coat, and clean up my room a little bit. Still need to do laundry but I want to do it tonight when it's cooler. Hannah convinced me to keep the purple coat. Yay! I can't wait to wear it.

I miss hanging out with Michelle. You better be getting a lot done! <3

HAYA! haha

Sponsoree Gabe =]

Last night, I couldn't fall asleep. Maybe I was excited for initiation? I don't know. Even after I finished my paper, I didn't feel like going to bed. Instead I talked to Hanyong and Aurina on aim the rest of the night! Trainer is so cute. I'd want her as a lil bro =] Went to bed at 6am and woke up at 1pm -__- Got late to class but at least I made it. I helped Cindy and Tina video shoot a video for Regionals. They were using Miley Cyrus's song Party in the USA -__-. I hate that song but oh well lol. I can't wait for the video to finish cuz I really want to see what it turns out like. Initiation was kind of long. Lots of memories. Had a lot of fun running around with trainer. Hanyong saw me "dancing" for the video shoot lol. Trainer was like who is that creeper standing there watching us haha. Yay for group 4 pics! I have my own sponsoree. Yay Sponsoree Gabe! =] His friend Melissa said that she's jealous of him because he has a good sponsor. aww <3

I was really tired from tonight so I'm relaxing now. Just listening to music and chatting.

"Just dance! gonna be okay!"

Haha I've said that to Hanyong twice and he never gets it. Fail!

I wanna go dancing!

Photo Hunt

I felt so much better today after my midterm. This week has been so boring cuz I spent it just studying and kind of catching up with classes. Tonight's rush event was so much fun. I didn't meet many rushees because we kind of planned a group 4 hangout. So I spent the entire time just hanging out with my group and messing around with Lenday. Jon, Krystal, Aurina, Ray, Nate and I played photo hunt! It was so much fun =] I seriously can't wait for initiation. I really want to see the actives side of it and I really want a sponsoree! I want a little so I can spoil him or her! -__-

Dana came by tonight and wanted my suggestions on what to do for her 21st birthday. She asked me if I knew about good clubs in sac. LOL who does she think I am?! someone who knows everything about clubs? haha jk jk. I told her she might want to do dinner and then just bar hopping in Davis. Ketmoree! woo I'm excited about next Friday =]

Work was fun today. I mostly just bonded with Cindy and met another tutor because they didn't need any more math tutors. Yay for getting paid for just sitting around and talking to other tutors. Apparently Cathy's in apo too but she's from Mayen term. We couldn't remember when we've seen each other before though cuz she looked really familiar. I added her on facebook and we have a lot of mutual friends including Hanyong. Man he knows everyone!

Jon Jon
we gave our first interview virginity away
Jon Jon
as an active though
at least
Kajol fan 88
haha yeahh!
together
lol
Jon Jon
3 way
lolz...
Kajol fan 88
omg -__-

Aurina
priyaaa
you and i are both doing the 16 guilding helpers
i dont even know what that means...
lol
Kajol fan 88
hahah
that means we help the rushees when they're blindfolded
like when they have to go up or down the stairs
Aurina
ohh i see
coool
we get to touch ppl
LOLOLOL
Kajol fan 88
HAHAH
no trainer you dont just touch them when you want to -___-

You made my day. Thank you.

Midterm tomorrow! =/

relationships. i don't get them.

Apartment Emergency

I've always assumed. Things that I just think of in my head, I eventually start accepting them and make them real. I got yelled at today. I suck at communicating.

I'm sorry I'm not even helpful. Thank you for making me laugh so much tonight. I sounded like an old lady cuz I kept coughing when I was trying to laugh. I realized I didn't even laugh once when I was home. What's going to happen to me when I have to move back home. Scared.

Night of relationship stuff.

Jon's substitute who has the group 4 spirit and blood

I ate more tonight. I'm still weak but I'll get over it. Going to Davis tomorrow yay.

Kajol fan 88: i'm done with this paper for now

Kajol fan 88: i'm just gonna email it to her

Kajol fan 88: cuz i can't even look at it anymore

"Jon Jon": tell her you're sick

"Jon Jon": and that you should get an A

Kajol fan 88: uhh

Kajol fan 88: she knows i'm sick

Kajol fan 88: lol

Kajol fan 88: i'm emailing it to her to get feedback

"Jon Jon": tell her if you don't get an A

"Jon Jon": you'll die

Kajol fan 88: omg -__-

"Jon Jon": and that she will have to live with that

"Jon Jon": the rest of her life

"Jon Jon": haha

"Jon Jon": lolk k

Kajol fan 88: is this what you do with your professors pbroo

Kajol fan 88: hahaha

"Jon Jon": noo

"Jon Jon": but i should!

"Jon Jon": lol

Kajol fan 88: hahaha

See more funny videos and TBT Videos at Today's Big Thing.

Not gonna lie..this video is way better than the original video lol. yea the girls are lip syncing to when a guy should be but whatever. they still do a good job =]

Last week I was thinking about getting a Flu shot..

..I should've done it.

The nurse yesterday was trying to set up an appointment for me to get tested for the flu because I wanted to (even though it was pretty obvious to her that I had it). She was like 2:30pm? I quickly responded with "I have class." She goes, "you're not going to class!"

She explained to me everything and how I'm not allowed to go to class until I feel better and all I could say to her was "I have a paper due on Monday and lots of reading and midterm next week" and she responds with "So does everyone." wow blunt much -__-

"..come back reenergized!"

"Guess your immune system isn't as impenetrable as you thought it was. I have the superior immune system >=)"

"I'll come take care of you!"

Awkward air kiss from hy that mich told him to give me haha. air hug. trying to cheer me up.

yesterday = 0 calories

today = more than 0

chicken noodle soup with fresh ground black pepper. just the way i like it =]

parents are amazing and make you feel like everything will be better in no time. after talking to them yesterday, they decided to pick me up and at 10pm I was at home.

I feel so much better today. No fever but my body still aches and I can't stop sneezing and nose won't stop running.

Hand sanitizer is my best friend right now.

I dropped the lab and I already feel so much less stressed. I guess I really can't handle 4 classes =/ that too with work and apo. MUST DO BETTER WITH ONLY 3 CLASSES NOW!

Fighting!!

haha =]

Gorgeous

Today was a much better day. I slept in! Worked on hw with Hugo and then apo meeting. I'm so excited for Lenday for being bb/lb chair =] better chances of getting a good lil! haha

People keep asking me why I didn't apply for pledge trainer or bb/lb chair this term and why I keep going to the meetings. Well I wanted to do PT but I don't want to have to go to the pledge retreat so I decided not to do it, which is such a stupid reason but I really don't like camping lol. And then trainer tells me only one of the pt's from each group has to go to the retreat. -___- fail!

Bb/lb chair is so stressful. You basically pair actives with pledges, which means you have to interview everyone who's picking up and all the pledges. Um no thanks! I don't want people blaming me for not doing good pairings because that is what happens. Not gonna lie, even I complained about it, mostly to pdad though.

Trainer asked me why I go to the meetings when I don't have to. Well honestly I find them fun lol. I get to see people and get updated on what's going on in apo.

Lenday and I are going to share a sponsoree. Yay I'm excited! =] I love that girl. She kept saying gorgeous to everything today lol. <3!

Jai Ho!

Sigh

Why am I so sensitive? Why do I feel so bitter? If I can't figure out what's wrong, then how can I fix it? I over-analyze everything people do or say. I take everything personally. I'm dumb. I want to fix this.

Last night was fun. I sound like an alcoholic saying this but drinking made me feel better and get away from everything and dancing of course. I want to go again.

I will be productive tomorrow!! I'm excited for the meeting for some reason. I think more people will show up =]

After the fun two days, I did not want to do anything. And now I'm not getting my reading done because I can't stop listening to music -__-

I can't wait for rushing to start!! freakin i wanna meet the new pledges already and get a lil bro so i can spoil him or her haha =]

JSwiSSuNiT21:	so i know what to say nx week
JSwiSSuNiT21:	when i hand out more flyers
Kajol fan 88:	haha
Kajol fan 88:	what are you gonna say
JSwiSSuNiT21:	sayyy you could be my next lil bro!!
JSwiSSuNiT21:	so come outt
JSwiSSuNiT21:	haha
Kajol fan 88:	aww that's cute
Kajol fan 88 :	=]

Birthday

I had so much fun Sunday night and Monday! Group 4 people decided to come so that they could company me with buying alcohol at safeway haha. At 12, all these people came and Hannah, Michelle and Hanyong surprised me! <3 Hannah and Michelle made cookies for me. OMG they were so good! Hannah took so many pictures haha. We went to safeway and bought mike's and trainer bought me smirnoff ice mango. We hung out at my apt after for a while and it was so much fun <3

The next night was even more fun. I went to dinner at Mikuni's with Hannah, Michelle, Hanyong, Annie, Kristen, Angela, Dorothy, Esteban, Hugo, Elio, and Dana. Omg freakin love them all! Dinner was just so nice even though I didn't really get to talk to anyone other than stare at Hanyong -__- haha. Food was so good though!

<3

Ketmoree tomorrow night!! I'm so excited! and listening to dancing music right now isn't helping lol.

Thank you:
-Hannah and Michelle for the cookies because they were sooo good and for the surprise <3!
-Hannah for the jewelry box..omg exactly what I needed cuz I've basically started collecting earrings haha.
-Michelle for just being an amazing friend <3
-Hanyong for the Epik High cd..seriously you're amazing! and for the surprise of course and the training chopsticks -__-. also thank you for the oyster shooter. it was good =]
-pbros for coming to hang out with me!
-mika for the smirnoff ice mango and hanging out
-hugo and elio for the earrings..even though i lost one of them already =[ elio said he'll help me make another one though so yay!
-Dorothy for the perfume <3
-Kristen for the flowers and bottle opener key chain haha
-Angela for the card
-Dana for the Key Lime Moto. It was so green <3
-Mom for calling me at 7:30am to wish me a happy birthday haha.
-Dad for calling at 10pm.. -__- he's always late with this stuff.

-Thank you everyone for the texts and facebook posts wishing me a Happy Birthday!